Paradox

Well, instead of lamenting about this over paced world is like I have been recently, with my limited usage of English, read this and feel how I feel.

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The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less. We buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We’ve added years to life not life to years.
We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We’ve done larger things, but not better things.
We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.
Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.
Remember, to say, “I love you” to your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Meanie

My aunt just spent 3minutes and 41seconds talking to herself while i held the phone to uhm and orh.

My sister came in to play with me while i smacked her on her leg and asked her to get out.

Mood: down down down down down down down, f man.

Induced

I've learnt to cherish my friends and watch my mouth at times. Thank God for the second chances in my life. I'm so frickin lucky. Maybe things might not be the same, but at least we mended our friendship, somehow. :DDDD

Looking forward to PE tomorrow! :P In the past PE was a dread, now with Olvls threatening to knock us down at high speed, PE is like a time to chill and relax. SOFT BALL, HANTUM BOLA, WHAT'S FOR TOMORROW? XD HOHOHOHO.

Can't believe these mixed feelings Im getting. Im glad because I get to move on and out of this darn secondary school life, filled with dread because you predict the future wouldnt be as great anymore and definitely slight regret that you didnt get on with very good terms with the people you knew(not that i really really absolutely care).

I really cannot accept your request for a temporary fix, I need you as a permanent shoulder.

Vanilla Twilight

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

Like strangers who claim to be in love

Been having stomachaches every night and morning since last week began(have been tolerating the periodic pains for about 2weeks or so) Getting more and more weary by the hour. Getting less and less patient with the poor fellow mates around me(yes, im very sorry, all of you) And when the head hits the pillows, remorse fills in me. "Why are you sleeping?! You shouldnt be sleeping until your world turns right side up again!?" Truth is, my world will never turn right side up, these problems will never stop flushing in.

My stepdad wouldnt stop getting angry with my mum. My grandmother wouldnt stop making my mum angry. My grandmother wouldnt stop nagging. Time wouldnt stop for me to finish revision. I would still have to make a decision after the Olevel results are out. I wouldnt stop being stupid.

I have to stand up right and stop standing on my hands. Because I cannot do handstands, and I cannot make miracles and I cannot make everyone understand me. So I dont expect everyone or anyone at all to understand me. And I know who are those who really know me inside and out and honestly give a damn about what goes on in my life. Yes I do cherish this minority(you all!)

Today, I wasnt mean to anyone in particular although I made a person slightly annoyed with me. I dont have an attitude problem. Its more like a lack of sleep. So Im sorry to everyone who got caught with my wrong timing to go to bed. Oh yeah, Ms Tan is mad at me for sleeping in her class. Ahhhhhh.

Thanks to Shermine, Keshini, Syahida and Tricia classes arent all boring :)))))) School would never be the same without themmmm!!! Gosh, love you bloody meerkats so so so much!

Say for the sake of saying; do for the sake of doing. Why not stop the pain right here right now?
I would be lying if I said my heart doesnt palpate faster everytime I see you around.
I'd be lying if I said I dont miss you at all like crazy. I'd be lying if I said you didnt have a place in my heart.

Yet, I'd be lying if I said cannot live without you.

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If I was younger...

If I was older...

If I was thinner...

If I was smarter...

If I was richer...

I would.

Enough already.

Start doing.

It's all within' your reach...but when you sit there looking at the ground, you can't see the doors of opportunity unlocked in front of you, waiting to be pushed open.

Look up. Step forward. Give 'em a shove.

You never know what's on the other side until you stop being so stubborn and actually try. Failures will fade, but regrets....they stay with you and steamroll until one day you are on the verge of insanity and engulfed by them. Blaming everyone around you.

Well, stop it. Take responsibility. Be happy now.

Stop wishing. Start creating.

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And you keep whispering the same story to yourself "I'll be unhappy now because that'll make me happy later. Because that's how a story works." So your happiness will always happen later, never now. Life isn't a story. Life is chaos.

Isn't it weird...that this is how we're being brought up?

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Take: time.

Give: love.

Savor: stillness.

Accept: peace.

Resist: nothing.

Because when you allow all of these things to happen...your dreams will tap you on the shoulder, sigh like an old friend, give you a hug and say, "I've been here...but you're mind has been clouded with so much other junk, justification, cynicism, and chaos you haven't been able to see me until now."

After all, dreams are friendly. They want you to find them.

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Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones you need most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

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You could ink yourself until everyone knows all the things you love. You could wear uniforms that gave you all the authority in the world. Lose weight until there was nothing left. Paint the face. Suck in your gut.

But in the dark, stripped down to your bones, all that remains is you.

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Sometimes love is like a lightbulb in an empty room. It has the chance to go out, and when it does, we freeze up. We walk with eyes closed, finding a way out of the darkness, to bring light back once again.

But sometimes we don’t want the suffer the pain of bumping into anything, or getting hurt on our way out, so some of us stand still. We decide not to escape it, and our eyes get used to being open but seeing nothing at all.

Those people wait endlessly hoping that someone will find them, and they stand in fear, perfectly still until it happens.

This is a familiar scent lingering on in my room...

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GNAHZZZZZZZ,RAWRZZZZZZ,PFFFT

RUN RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN, YOU CANT CATCH ME, IM THE GINGERBREAD MAN!

Running is a human's most natural instinct when you're being enveloped, no? EVERYONE'S BEEN GETTING INTO SPORTS NOWADAYS! Even lazy bum MX went to run during the holidays! O:

SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM

MOCK EXAM! GO GO GO! ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ Im confident I can get to sleep tonight YESSHHHHHHHHH

Looking forward to nothing

Thank God for Erin McCarley!

JUST WHEN I WAS GETTING SOOOO HYPED UP ABOUT TOMORROW'S SWIMMING SESSION WITH TRICIA, girls' best friend/worst enemy HAD to come today!

It's like:

you have been starving for half a day and you wanted to walk into Mac for a bite when it collapses right infront of you with Optimus Prime trampling over it and Megan Fox and Shia LaBeouf trailing behind!

you had been yearning your entire life to get married to your boyfriend of 10years and he dies of cancer!

when your crush sends you to your doorstep and you thought he was leaning over for a kissand the butterflies get so excited in your stomach with the intensity building up inside of you but in the end he says "Is that your cat right behind you?"!

when your phone vibrates and the thought of the boy of your dreams leaving you a message pops up in your mind and you hesitate to check the name of the person for 5minutes and when you finally muster enough guts to take a peek at the screen, you realise it wasnt him!

In short, IT SUCKS!

I want to be crazy, so smart, so calm, so prestigious, so talented, have many friends that honestly care about me, so beautiful, so well-curved, so respected, famous, helpful, everything!

Have you ever felt you had to live up to all your expectations that you know you could never meet? Man, I gotta be content with what I have. But what do I have, really..

I'd love to be so many different mes..can anyone understand what kind of weird feelings Im going through? Doubt so, its so weird.

I'm here and gone again, hahahahah!

Studies arent everything, I know. Money isnt everything, I know that too. But I have nowhere to go from here. No one will want to try new things with me. I want to do so many things. I want to try so many things. I hate planning my future, I hate doing things for my future. I used to like many things, I dont even know how and why I became who I am today. And I dont really like me.

Hello/Goodbye - Erin McCarley
I'd love to hear you say
anything but silence
You're unaware that I'm so tired
And I've tried to understand
am I the only one who cares here?
I can't let you, let you disappear

Jon Mclaughlin- Beautiful Disaster

She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and compliments.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she sees make her cry.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,
And she just needs someone to take her home.

She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfections.

She's not a drama queen,
She doesn't want to feel this way, only seventeen but tired

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home.

Cuz she's just the way she is, but no ones told her that's ok.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

But she just needs someone to take her home
And she just needs someone to take her home.

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Last post, I swear!

PLEASE HAVE SOME FUCKING ORIGINALITY,
IT'S OKAY IF YOUR DUMB,
IT'S FINE IF YOU HAVE NO CREATIVITY,
IT'S ALRIGHT IF AREN'T THE JOKER OF THE CLASS,
IT'S NOT A CRIME TO NOT HAVE THE FASTEST BRAIN,
BUT AT THE LEAST, GET A CHARACTER, OWN SOME DIGNITY, SHOW SOME PRIDE IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN, STAND UP FOR YOURSELF AND NOT FOLLOW WHAT'S COOL OR COPY WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY AND SIGN IT UNDER YOUR NAME,
SO I PLEAD,
get a life,
YOUR OWN

Insulting a person's intelligence solely by considering their academic results...NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL A CRIME, not that i instigated anything for goodness' sake-.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEWPING!:)

Okay, staying under the covers as long as i can take! Like that how to go JC? Tell me la! I pledge to get a single digit. If not then....TOO BAD FOR ME LA, THEN WHAT LOL

Actually there are so many things to update about! But right this moment i cant recall what i wanna type, geez, need to swallow more DHA pills-.- my mum says in increases memory retention. CROSSSSSS FINGERRRRRSSSSSS.

Even you can't handle me

What the fut,
i'm a mean slut.

Vanessa, you never know your limits do you?
You push and push and push for everything you want,
until the day came.
But you do know you have to stand up for your rights.
Tell yourself it's just a really bad point of life,
believe it.

Now that we have reached nirvana on the issue,
the best thing I can think of is silence my thoughts,
keep mum
and be a good kid.

Do miss me mates :)

Intoxicated

Getting a hangover soon, fucking low threshold for alcohol. Yeah i got so fed up i ended up doing stupid things with awesome friends. \m/ rock on. Cant get high la fuck.

Adventurous day. Apparently im getting fucked up by some person i dont know the reason for. Fyi, it fucking sucks.

East coast park x-country was super crap. Ramdan and I are full of shitdisturbing Jeanette. Chat with Estee and Raymoon most of the time. Rode Damian's bike around alone, ya la emo shit. Kesh didn come today, stupid loser. Then...

watched final destination 3d - with Chloe, Brandon, Tricia, Maid, thanks to maid(HAHAHAHAHA). Awesome visual effects man. Syahida screaming and blocking her face by my side and Tricia blocking her ears and me laughing about the luncheon meat getting oozing out form the fence. And maid said "YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE LAUGHING!!!!" I think Gary trained me enough to watch gore movies. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Went to PS with KellyAnn today after the movie to change her tester nail polish to a new one. HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA THANK GOD ABIGAIL NOTICED.

Today tickets and alcohol they never check. Sg rocks man

I LOVE MY FRIENDS FOR BEING WITH ME TONIGHT AND EVERY NIGHT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, IM NOT DRUNK JUST ABIT CRAZY AND TIRED. I LOVE LL THE LATE NIGHT CALLS ESPECIALLY. AND I REALLY HOPE PEOPLE CHEER UP. Its so weird when i feel like shit i love to cheer people up with encouragements. HAAHAHAHAHAHAHA I HATE YOU STILL THOUGH CT. SHH SHH.

Im getting a fucking headache, but i still want to chat online. HAHAHAHAHAHA, POOL TOMORROW. AWESOME DAY. WOOO Stupid Daryl goes drink drink drink-.-

Today is a very nameful post,dunno why. LOL. I LOVE FRIENDS WHO MAKE ME HAPPY. I LOVE YOU ALL. MWAH MWAH

I SO WANNA LEARN HOW TO SKATEBOARD