Hello helicopter, would you be my friend?

Hey, im late for school today. All thanks to my powerful procrastination of my EOM. Great.

Felt a little bruised at my bottom left jaw this monring. Then, it suddenly occurred to me Hip elbowed my chin while we were playing basketball in school(w/ niggers Linus, XuanMing, YongJia, Tj and Hipppp). Hiack! Didn't know it would leave an effect-.- Dumb muscle.

Anyhoooooo, this whole week is madness. I've been skipping school lately due to waking up real late and shit. Mrs Choy asked me,

"Why huh, Vanessa why you never come for the last lecture?"
*rolls eyes for about 30seconds* "Oh, gastric"
"Ya and you must still think so long! Stop skipping school ah!"

Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I must do better than this la. Fucked up habit of mine!!!!!

Ms Eng made my mum nag at me-.- She told my mum that my MC rate was at an all time high and I've been coming to school late and shiat. Blah blah blah.. So my mum was onto me on the latest Wednesday(meet-my-mother session)

"Vanessa, your rank points are 33 and you need 35 to pass and you need 70 to get to the university"
"I know, i tot i tell you already???"
"Yah, and you have been going late to school very often for the first semester and been taking tons of MCs!"
"I KNOW, I TOT I TELL YOU ALREADY???"
"Yah Vanessa you better do something about it!"
"I AM DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT, WHY ARE YOU SO NAGGY TODAY??"
"Your Ms Eng asked me to nag at you mah"
-.-'""""''''""

Nagging has no effect on me and my mum knows it. ACT CUTE ONLY NAH MY MUM. Stupid teacher. Useless naggings. -.-

Had a conference with Syahida & TanJuen a few days back. My two favourite people :D It was quite interesting to hear them talk heheheh. Really really loveddddddd. And become the last to wish Syahida Happy Birthday. I hope i didnt make you TOO sad throughout the day though!!!

Anyhow,

cheer up Hip. As what i quote from my friend Susanna, "People change so that you can learn to let go, you believe lies so you eventually start to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall back together."

K, im going to school nao hehe

Pokez

What do i mean to you?

Or rather,
what did i mean to you?

11:11

Been seeing it almost everyday. Morning & night. Make a wish? Or someone misses me as Alson says?

Anyway....a few weeks ago, YuXian bought tickets for Jay's concert for meeee for todaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! :( like one suaku i didnt know there were so many days for his concert!!!! Sorry la Shaun! ANYWAY, i had to forgo it because i have tuition at 7pm and my mum insist i go for it. W-E-M! (Whatever man)

Roar, sad over it for half an hour and got pretty hyped for tuition XD

Anyhooooo, I KNOW HOW TO PLAY BREAKEVEN VERSES ALREADY O GOSHHHHHHHHH :PPPPPPPP AND THE MOST BASIC CHORDS OF WONDERWALL!!! :DDDDDD URUQUAY, PROUD OF ME YET?? HAHAHAHAH

Hiack hiack hiack~
You're at the back of my mind now. I hope you dont reappear.

iWILLrun2010

WILL run is the most interesting and meaningful thing i've done for the past year. For those who dont know, there is this annual run SRJC will hold where everyone has to run a minimum of 10km in 1hr 30min for the guys and 1 hr 45 min for the girls. And every 1km that you run, $1 will be given to charity(HCA hospice and the 100tree prog) Guess what,

VANESSA RAN 15KM TODAY! :DDDDD

and is running a fever currently hehehehe (like i say, my mind is stronger than my body).
Pun intended

Of course there are the crazy people~ Like Hip - 17km, HuiLin - 16km. I'd like to thank ZhongJie for pacing me from 8k onwards(he another crazy one, run super duper fast and can last damn long. he ran 11km before he started to pace me, ASS RIGHT!)

Thank Ms Charissa Lim for running with me 200m(can tell you aren't a great fan of running!) :DDDDD

AND TANJUEN(broken hands + braces HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA) FOR THE CAPO HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

Well, aren't you all proud of meeeeeeeeeee??? :DDD From this, i learnt, i can do anything as long as my mind says GO! :D And oh, the real WILL run date is next saturday(BUT IM HELPING OUTTTT, SO GO JOYCE GO!!!!) WILL Run 2010 will be held on Saturday 31 July beginning at 0730hrs at Serangoon Junior College. The Girls/Women’s category begins at 0730hrs followed by the Boys/Men’s category at 0930hrs.
Once again, we hope to clock 20, 014km– the distance between the North and South poles – in less than 5 hours through the combined efforts of staff, students and alumni.

And, i miss Mauren very much!

It's been awhileeee

CRISPY MADCOW DELIGHT

ANYHOO, IM A HAPPY GIRL TONIGHT.

IT TAKES JUST SO LITTLE FOR ME TO BE HAPPY, BUT SO MUCHHHH TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE CRYING.

IM A HAPPY AND GRATEFUL GIRL TONIGHT. AND THIS WEEK..I WILL NOT BE LATE:)

I LOVE MY FRIENDS♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

AND MY HAIR XD

www.similarminds.com

WANT TO DO YOUR PERSONALITY TEST?
The Big Five is currently the most accepted personality model in the scientific community. The Big Five emerged from the work of multiple independent scientists/researchers starting in the 1950s who using different techniques obtained similar results. Those results were that there are five distinct personality traits/dimensions. Here are your results on each dimension:

Extroversion 81%
Orderliness 32%
Emotional Stability 75%
Accommodation 41%
Inquisitiveness 44%

Extroversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Emotional Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Accommodation results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly selfish, uncooperative, and difficult at the expense of the well being of others.

Inquisitiveness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

Your Global5/SLOAN type is SCUEN
Your Primary type is Social

SCUEN
(2.9% of women; 3.2% of men)

not easily hurt, spends more time in group activities than solitary activities, comes alive at parties and in crowds, not very religious, would not want to give up drinking or smoking, not mystical, not big on science fiction, does not care if people think poorly of them, not very introspective, fits in most places, does not like to go days without speaking to people, likes change, trusting, not very intellectual, underachiever, not easily moved to tears, thrill seeker, does not like to compromise, not apologetic, avoids difficult reading material, relaxed most of the time, likes danger, not punctual, impatient, not upset by the misfortunes of strangers, believes in an eye for an eye, not detail oriented, uninterested in the needs of others, avoids responsibilities, not known for generosity, more dominant than submissive, likes crowds, aggressive, willing to take risks, not embarrassed easily, not passionate about improving the world, show off, socially comfortable, acts as they please, not bothered by disorder

In short, i'm like a damn boy-.-

Social
(16.1% of women; 11.5% of men)

more verbal than non verbal, spends more time in group activities than solitary activities, does not like to go long without speaking to anyone, loves night life activities and crowds, competes for the spotlight, fits in most places, trusting, self expressive, not the best listener, action oriented, if they had to live their life over again they would not change much, dresses to stand out, seductive, very sexual, does not fear getting involved with others, female extroverts like tight fitting clothing, have more desire than fear, enjoys leadership, brutally honest, more random than controlled, impulsive, optimistic, motivated, wants to be famous, exhibitionist tendencies

I'm a weird bitch who dreams about being successful but never becomes.

Change. Time to be punctual.

I know i always say that but it wears off. I'll make sure, that being on time, will be one of my best points.

Explain your answer

Why can't you see i'm doing this the hard way because you wanted it to be like this?

You are an avoider. Both of you are avoiders. I feel suffocated when i avoid problems like this. You never even said goodbye when you started this entire cold war going on. Or mention anything.

Tell me. Tell me now, what is this about?

Read this and realise that all the while i have missed you so bad.

I laugh, breathe, jump, feel tired & laugh even
more. Is this about me? Or another girl you're talking about? Because if you put
that as your status update, i guess avoiding each other is a complete fucking
waste of time. And hurting each other becomes absolutely
unnecessary.

Cry

I really hate running away from people/situations/things/responsibility.

I really hate running away in general.

I'd rather stand and fight my way through if i could. But i wouldnt. Because i would hurt you. And hurting you sucks.

What sucks even more? Getting hurt by not hurting you and you dont even know or give a damn.

I hate having to avoid the people i hold close to my heart.

Broader perspectives

BE GRATEFUL

Giving dignity to everything around us means to give everythng an unconditional opportunity to be beautiful in our eyes.

Rush

Everyday is a rush. Yet everyday is a blessing. A chance for us to propel forward in whatever we do. The time for us to express what we want, do what we feel is of utmost importance to us.

This week was all about getting your work in on time & learning more by asking your friends questions. Even as much as your friends say "SO EASY, YOU DUNNO HOW TO DO MEH?" you still continue to ask. Because even though you may feel defeated and that you feeling stupid maybe major at the current, but you have learnt something that makes you more knowledgable and will be worthwhile. Getting hurt for that 2minutes every question will seem like the size of a minion after you get into the uni. Why do you want to keep your ego? Egos can't be eaten.

And i accepted more people into my life willingly this week:) And i think i'm getting the hang of doing chemistry!! :P

The talk Tj & i had last night showed me that it doesn't matter how long you have known a person, as long as you can click, there won't be any awkwardness between you two even at the most sensitive topics. And i'm glad i didn't try to correct it myself. Lucky we cleared up some air. :DD

(And that first impressions are truly important!!! LOLOLOL)

Yellow jelly yoooooo~~

i want to see you, but i hope i dont so that
i wouldnt strangle you with my hugs & finally realise,
you dont love me like you did.

i bloody hell miss you.

AND FUCK NO, IM NOT TALKING ABOUT MY DAMN EX -.-

MountainFest'10

Mountain biking in Tampines was super embarrasing! I fell into potholes and ran up a rocky hill up with YunXun laughing like how Spongebob & Patrick would laugh when they were catching jellyfish. The whole trip was made extremely enjoyable with Mark & YunXun chionging here & there :P Laughing & cheering for no damn reason in the dumb secluded woods with occasional bikers zooming through.

Then we headed down for...

RockFest, the student run programme was spilt into two sections. First was the acoustic & the second portion was the rock part. There were songs like Three Cheers For Five Years, Innocence, Fireflies(Georgia was really good), one of Anusha's favourite song, which i can't remember now.

And then for the rock part, there was THE TAKE OVER, THE BREAK'S OVER OMYGOD. THAT'S WHAT MADE MY DAY LA :D~!!!!!!! :DDDD And of course the sameo same-o Human, Viva La Vida, bla bla bla. But they also played songs that were questionable like Apologoise & You Belong With Me (LOLOLOLOL) Hip went all "hello rock songs please" HAHAHAHHAA! Ain laughed like mad after that. Clarice(good job good job) sang My Life Would Suck Without You. OH OH THERE WAS THIS ONE GUY WHO WAS REALLY GOOD!!! HE SANG THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED. HE WAS REALLY OFF THE HOOK. OMG.
So Friday night was spent rocking out and trying to avoid odorous mosh pits with soccer guys in them hehehehe. V^^V Special thanks to Hip for "chopping" ticket for me. MUAHAHAHAHAHA

SERIOUSLY

(Y)

_l_

stupidvamps-.-

GOING TO WATCH DESPICABLE(YAAAAAY) &
ECLIPSE(EEEEE) WITH CHINNY NOW :DDDDD

Two movies in a day! O gosh!

I hate you being all serious...makes me feel so uncertain. Hip says i've been giving false hope. Wee says it's not my fault. Know what? I'm just gonna give out the right signals this time round no matter how fucked up this situation is.

I wouldnt want it to end up like how.......yellow jelly & i are T_T

Stupid shit. Couples or nothing?! Seriously, grow up.

Elsie Fisher!

WATCH AND LAUGHHHHHH! CHEER UP K ^^

Miss

Miss the way you call me "nessa" when on the comp, but "vaness" when you call me face to face

Yeah, i know i shouldnt be typing this. Bear with me. I cant forget important people easily.

My brother is watching "Up" and all i can think about is how excited you were when you told me it was the first time you were watching a cartoon movie.

No, im not trying to gain sympathy. I like to think nobody reads this space anymore.

I put my thoughts here. If you think im trying to be funny, then i guess you forgot how much i hate hypocrites and that i chose not to be and be with one.

These memories have to go

I miss how my heart bursts in warmth when you pat my head

Nicholina: "do you have any chinese baby baby baby no...?"

bieberblast

You're gone

Bb uh bb

EH WTF, MY SISTER IS SINGING BABY BABY BABY OH,
BABY BABY BABY NOOOOOOO

Helppppp meeeeeeee T_____T

Shu Ting!

TO MY FRIEND IN AUSTRALIA, HAVE FUN :D And dont laugh at me for staying in this sucky Singapore education system :B

It's been a week plus

since i last saw youuuuuu

*uncontrollable nodding of head*
*sudden realisation you're in a lecture*
*looks up*
*wriggles uncomfortably in seat*
*bell rings*
*rush to next tutorial/lecture*
(cycle repeats at least 5-6 times a day)

YESSSSSSSSS, I have overcomed one week of jc & it feels like i have gone through hell 5 times through *moooooaaaaannnn* Tj has shown me im not the only nerd in school!!!

I miss the times in secondary school when we will congregate in canteen
& sit in one gigantic group & eat lunch!! I LOVE THE TIMES WHEN WE WOULD
SING BIRTHDAY SONGS REALLY REALLY LOUDLY & PRETEND WE OWNED THE AREA XD

And i miss the netball trainings we used to have in primary school. & the
baskbetball days with Yfang, Sam, Alan, Wliang & all. All the block catching
was (L)

Rockfest is next Friday! There's mountain biking on the same day!! How to go like this?! Xue te.
Will be going to another part of Malaysia & maybe HONGKONG WITH ODAC NEXT YEAR for hiking!!! :D

K, enjoy my song :D I'm going to do my articlesearching now :D

Wo xuan ze fang qi ni

Hai ni hao. Have been cuaght up with school. Wont be updating this space with my emoness anymore. Muahaha. Just to update the people who are still interested if im still alive.....i'll be taking my chinese alevel oral soon. Sigh. I really miss the times when ShuTing & i will stroll in late & complain about how torturous the lesson was after that. Speaking of which..i wonder how's ShuTing nowwwww. Hehehehe maybe look like half chinese half angmoh :DDD Or got some damn hot boyfriend XD

I rmbrd i wanted to blog something really exciting. But i forgot-.- OH! I whited out yesterday during training-.- Like for at least 3 minutes i could see shit. Everything was so blur and in threes. What the heck. Yesterday 5k, today 5k, tomorrow i think another 5k. TGIFT(tomorrow)!!! HEHEHE.

Chatted with Anusha at the door after the Sarawak meeting today. SHE IMPROVED TREMENDOUSLY! :D Okay, she just gave me motivation ^^ Talking to bendemeerians kinda made me feel at home again. Feeling very uneasy these few days.. I think something bad's brewing up zzzzz! Hate school! Really!

Been playing with my siblings very much lately. Hehe, nice warm feeling when they come to the door to hug you. :D Ok na...
nerd mode :D

Wo bu neng gei ni que ding de wei lai