Thursday, September 23, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Alexithymia
Surrounded but lonely,
alone but secure..
then alone and lonely.
I miss the times when i could give my 10% and get 70% result
I miss the times when midnight studying meant 60% talk shit time
I'm frustrated but i dont know who to tell or even what to say.
Something's wrong, but i can't put these things in words
The different sights, smells, pains, feelings keep reminding me about the past
Why is it so difficult to move forward and detach myself?
Fucking nerd, fucking failure
alone but secure..
then alone and lonely.
I miss the times when i could give my 10% and get 70% result
I miss the times when midnight studying meant 60% talk shit time
I'm frustrated but i dont know who to tell or even what to say.
Something's wrong, but i can't put these things in words
The different sights, smells, pains, feelings keep reminding me about the past
Why is it so difficult to move forward and detach myself?
Fucking nerd, fucking failure
Monday, September 13, 2010
IT'S BEEN SO LONG!
Hey babies whoever who bother to come by this dusty place! *waves*
Yeah, my blog is -69870853439x boring than how it used to be, im sorry >:
Anyhow, cc asked this random question last night while we were trying to bore each other to sleep at 4am in the morning... "What are 10 things do you think you are good at?"
The first thing was "im good for nothing" and i really couldnt figure anything i was really good at besides wrecking up peoples' lives and being a large disappointment. Of course im also good at making tons of noise to irritate and wake people up! Well, i guess that has to account for something...
The thing is, i rememebered having this conversation somewhere with someone else...Tricia i guess? I remembered us thinking about life in general. Started imagining what if we were good at studying...good at inventing stuff...yadahyadah. And i realised, no one has actually activated my brain for a long time. Going to school, coming home, dry and merely going through the motion. Sheesh.
I think i'm being a full-fledged nerd. If i have nothing to do, i mug or play the guitar. This life is gradually becoming so bland. Sometimes i really dont see the point in studying so hard just to get that piece of paper. Yeah the oh-so-famous paper-chase.
What do i want in life? I really don't know. I haven't really found my purpose in life. What i know is that i wanna dance, i wanna play the guitar, i wanna encourage recycling in Singapore!!
And i also wanna find the right words to say at the right for the right people.
EXCITED FOR PROMOS TO BE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! V^^V
But ironically want it to not start at all. DDDD:
Tag me! What's your purpose in life? And how did you find it?
Yeah, my blog is -69870853439x boring than how it used to be, im sorry >:
Anyhow, cc asked this random question last night while we were trying to bore each other to sleep at 4am in the morning... "What are 10 things do you think you are good at?"
The first thing was "im good for nothing" and i really couldnt figure anything i was really good at besides wrecking up peoples' lives and being a large disappointment. Of course im also good at making tons of noise to irritate and wake people up! Well, i guess that has to account for something...
The thing is, i rememebered having this conversation somewhere with someone else...Tricia i guess? I remembered us thinking about life in general. Started imagining what if we were good at studying...good at inventing stuff...yadahyadah. And i realised, no one has actually activated my brain for a long time. Going to school, coming home, dry and merely going through the motion. Sheesh.
I think i'm being a full-fledged nerd. If i have nothing to do, i mug or play the guitar. This life is gradually becoming so bland. Sometimes i really dont see the point in studying so hard just to get that piece of paper. Yeah the oh-so-famous paper-chase.
What do i want in life? I really don't know. I haven't really found my purpose in life. What i know is that i wanna dance, i wanna play the guitar, i wanna encourage recycling in Singapore!!
And i also wanna find the right words to say at the right for the right people.
EXCITED FOR PROMOS TO BE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! V^^V
But ironically want it to not start at all. DDDD:
Tag me! What's your purpose in life? And how did you find it?
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