Been having stomachaches every night and morning since last week began(have been tolerating the periodic pains for about 2weeks or so) Getting more and more weary by the hour. Getting less and less patient with the poor fellow mates around me(yes, im very sorry, all of you) And when the head hits the pillows, remorse fills in me. "Why are you sleeping?! You shouldnt be sleeping until your world turns right side up again!?" Truth is, my world will never turn right side up, these problems will never stop flushing in.
My stepdad wouldnt stop getting angry with my mum. My grandmother wouldnt stop making my mum angry. My grandmother wouldnt stop nagging. Time wouldnt stop for me to finish revision. I would still have to make a decision after the Olevel results are out. I wouldnt stop being stupid.
I have to stand up right and stop standing on my hands. Because I cannot do handstands, and I cannot make miracles and I cannot make everyone understand me. So I dont expect everyone or anyone at all to understand me. And I know who are those who really know me inside and out and honestly give a damn about what goes on in my life. Yes I do cherish this minority(you all!)
Today, I wasnt mean to anyone in particular although I made a person slightly annoyed with me. I dont have an attitude problem. Its more like a lack of sleep. So Im sorry to everyone who got caught with my wrong timing to go to bed. Oh yeah, Ms Tan is mad at me for sleeping in her class. Ahhhhhh.
Thanks to Shermine, Keshini, Syahida and Tricia classes arent all boring :)))))) School would never be the same without themmmm!!! Gosh, love you bloody meerkats so so so much!
Say for the sake of saying; do for the sake of doing. Why not stop the pain right here right now?
I would be lying if I said my heart doesnt palpate faster everytime I see you around.
I'd be lying if I said I dont miss you at all like crazy. I'd be lying if I said you didnt have a place in my heart.
Yet, I'd be lying if I said cannot live without you.
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