It's always good to have people reminding & caring for you around.
It feels great to love the people around you who are aware rather than people who blur themselves around & maybe pretend not to notice.
(Am keeping too many things to myself these days)
I thank Ian for making realise what a stuck up bitch I am sometimes & Everard & MH for poking sense that I've been an irritating & easily emotion manipulated whore most of the time.
School is more or less about maximising your learning space & trying to conjure some weird magic into getting an A for every test. (BTW I PASSED MY CHINESE TEST, GAAAAAAAAAWD) And about excelling in sports. Almost everyone is pretty much serious in doing what the teachers tell us to do. Makes me feel retarded sometimes because I dont usually listen to the higher authority. Heh, positive influence does wonders. Yes Im also easily influenced-.-
On the other hand, you dont see a future in what you do most of the time. You live by the day. Once you get lost in studying through books, social awareness goes out the window. You rush home, bang a few aunties, stare at some kids, open your books & start to study again. That is if you get too used to it.
Darkness engulfs you - whole.
But Im not like that yet. :D
I just wish, one day, if I really become like that someone would wake me up form this trance. Anyone would do. I dont want to be a walking lump of sculptured flesh void of all emotion.
To digress from getting all sulken down & emo, I tell you something! I saw two cockroaches having sex on Thursday! Second time k! Called bitch immediately. Hehe. Goshhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
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