Running from

Why am i pushing the one who understands me the most in school away?

I want to push through all the low expectations of me. I want to succeed in my academics, for once. I'm not smart, I know. That's why i took all the effort to sit down and concentrate for some time almost everyday. The route i chose has me to adjust my habits. And that is what i wanted. Isn't it?

Chem & Bio SPA in a week.

Who cares if you are being maligned or backstabbed? Who cares if others spread nothing but bad rumours about you? Who cares if the one you cared about most doesnt give a shit about you? Who cares if whatever they have said about you wasn't true at all? They don't. So why should you huh Vanessa? It is difficult to stay angry for long..I really want to hate your fucking guts. But i can't. I can only rant about whatever that happened and then forget about it. I just really am disappointed by whatever that spews out of your mouth. Maybe one day i will stand up against you. However, i do not have the honour to gain extra time for me to do so yet.

Other than that, i'm sorry if i made it sound like i didnt care. I was...multitasking. You know you matter to me. I made the decision for the better of me. Selfish, but inevitable. There was no other choice involved.

Promos in 6 weeks. Make it happen, Vanessa. Other matters can wait. This can't. You are short of time.

I decided to bail on school for the last time today. It's 5am and i need sleep. I hope we remain friends. Because you are who i depend on for the days to come. Maybe you'll learn to hate me for now but it seems this friendship isn't going to end just yet.

I miss my friends i used to have fun with. Fun.